The beginning of my weight loss journey.

I have decided that I am going to take my weight by the horns and get motivated and finally loose what I need to lose that is making life so hard and unhealthy for me. I have a class reunion coming up in the fall, also, and I don't want to go looking like I do right now. I look gross, and I feel gross. Let me back up and start where it all began.

In high school I was pretty average. I weighed under 200 pounds, but I was still chunky. I've never been under 160, I don't think. But I still looked decent. After I graduated, I went off to college, and I did one year of college..I gained the freshman 15 and then some. I was not happy with myself, at all. When I came back home, I was exercising and eating right..well, mom was feeding me, so I was having to eat right, lol.

2002 was when Eric and I started dating. And 2003 was when we got engaged, and started planning our wedding. From 2003 to 2004 I lost a total of 45 pounds and I weighed 175 at the time of our wedding.

What is making me get serious and want to lose this weight. And I am embarrassed to say this. In 6 years I have gained over 100 pounds. I feel like a whale. Right now I weigh 248. That's scarily unhealthy for a girl my age. I have made it my goal to lose 30 pounds by the time my parents come out to visit in the spring and another 30 by the time we go home...that will put me at 188. Much better than what I was at Christmastime when my family saw me last, that's for sure. Of course I don't plan on stopping there, I want to get down to a healthy weight for a person my age.

I am wanting to do this without weight loss surgery, and I feel that I can. I am scared at the thought of having thousands of stitches put in me.

I will update as time goes by, I just wanted to give my story and as to why I am so upbeat about losing this weight--and why I don't want surgery.